Week 15 Nov. 10th-
I need Target!
It is Sunday morning and I
have had two cups of coffee, a piece of raisin toast (who would have thought!)
and have been serenaded by the lady behind me as well as a party in the street
playing gingham style through a very loud speaker. I am still in my pajamas,
yet need to get going so I can go up to school and grade a few papers and plan
for the week. I have been putting this blog entry off because I have not had
anything significant happen this week of which to write. So, I think I will write about writing a
blog.
Many people around me are
reading and say they wished that they too had started writing about their
experiences and are amazed that I have kept this up. I, too, am amazed that I
have been disciplined enough to write weekly. You see, discipline is not one of
my strengths. I start many things I do
not finish and I set lofty goals that I do not accomplish. I procrastinate on chores that overwhelm me
and I do not prioritize well. I have many journals that have one or two entries
from significant times in my life and I have told a few people I would write
their stories if they ever wanted to sit down and do it. This blog however,
seems different. I want to document this
time in my life, because I do not want to forget it. This is one goal I set for myself that I
actually accomplished. No, it is not the
version I had in my mind, but sometimes life throws one a curve ball and how
one reacts to that determines much.
Currently, I am up to 109
pages on a word document. I do not know
how that happened and I am amazed when I sit down with nothing to write about
and end up with an entry that seems somewhat significant. Taking an hour each week to reflect on what
has happened to me that is new or unique, helps me to keep things in
perspective and count my blessings. I
have slowed down a bit on checking how many page views I have on my blog, but
when I first started that part gave me encouragement and motivation. It reminded me of the feeling I had the three
times I tried online dating. I would get
home from work and immediately check to see if anyone had viewed my
profile. I got that little feeling in
the pit of my stomach when I had a message to view and the excitement of a
child on Christmas morning when I had a “match”. I became obsessed to view the
website, but then never followed through.
The caution part of my brain kicked in and I became a voyeur of my own
profile rather than an active participant.
With the blog, there is no risk involved (except that I might make an
error in grammar or spelling and the grammar/spelling Nazis among you will
judge). With the blog, it is just my
thoughts and I. Sometimes, this practice
of weekly writing motivates me to get out and do something worth writing about
and other times, it forces me to think.
I do agree with the old adage that we all have a story to tell. Most
never do anything with that story but get old and have their grandkids hear it
over and over. I am so glad I have some
stories from my mother’s Italian family written down so that they can be shared
for generations. However, I have nothing from my father’s side. With them both
gone, the chance is lost. He would never
talk about the war in which he fought, growing up with a single parent because
he lost his dad early in life or going to college on the GI bill. All I remember of his stories was that he
hitch hiked home from college and that the experiences from the war turned a
wonderful peaceful soul into a person who craved alcohol to mask those memories.
My point is whether a
person feels they are a good writer or not, all should try to record their
story in some way- by documenting pictures in a photo album (I am so scared for
this generation of digital picture takers- does anyone ever print them??), by
writing a poem, a journal or a blog. It is good for the soul.
A brief accounting of the
week: Tuesday was book club. We discussed Lean IN and for some reason at one point of the evening, the
conversation goes to bashing America. I
am starting to get a little defensive.
It is almost like the “I can call my sibling a name but don’t you even
think about it (I cannot tell you how many times I write “abou tit”- one of
these days I am going to not see my mistake and let it go through!!) mentality. I get defensive. Oh well, next month’s book is lovely and I do
not see a way for it to turn into an America needs to.... discussion. It is The
Art of Hearing Heartbeats and so far the writing is beautiful.
November is donation month
for the monasteries. A big metal “tree’
has been erected in our school’s foyer and students bring in item to hang from
it or stack beneath it. Thing like towels, monk fans, school supplies, food
baskets are all around the tree. There
is also a money jar. What a wonderful
way to teach charity.
Because the rain has
stopped (OMG- I have not even mentioned that—THE RAIN HAS CEASED!) we had a
happy hour on the rooftop of one of the apartment buildings. It is nice to get
together and just listen to people’s stories.
This however, stifled my writing material this week. I had planned to “go out” to 50th
street so I could stick to my cultural activity month goal; However, when going
out means not starting until 9:30pm that gives me five hours to talk myself out
of the experience. One of these days I
will find my inner youth and take the trip downtown.
I am still trying to decide
if jewels are in my future. See the
pictures and look at the lure.
I am homesick. Friday night I had to tell our host that he
needed to change the music because I could not take anymore James Taylor. You see James Taylor’s Fire and Rain was one of our favorite CD’s to play on road trips
and Dylan’s rendition of Carolina was
absolutely the cutest thing in the world with his little Texas twang twist on
the lyrics. I found myself singing one moment and then teary eyed the next. I also found out that one of my best friends is going to have to go back and have a tumor removed (for the third time) from her brain. I have been with her through this for the last 28 years and feel so bad that I will be half way around the world and not able to help. She has a strong faith and is a miracle in human form with all she has been through. I will pray for fast healing and for her doctors at MD Anderson to have wisdom. With readers from six countries, I ask that you do the same. Her surgery is the day before Thanksgiving, Nov 27th. her name is Trish (I know- confusing but true).
It
will be good to get home, get kisses, get bored and then get back. I am also in
need of a few things and desire the one stop shopping ease of Target. What I do not miss is being bombarded with ads for Christmas. My gifts this year will be unique and probably ones that my sons, siblings, as well as my nieces and nephews will say- "What was she thinking?" However, when you get right down to it, don't we really all buy what we need and if we want it bad enough, don't we find some justification for the purchase? I rest my case- they will love the stories behind the purchases.
That’s all for now. Next weekend I go to the Shan State to
participate in the Lighting festival in Thadingyut . I imagine there will
be great
pictures to share and if I can take pictures and protect my hair from catching
fire- you know I will do it. remember- if you click on the picture, they get bigger.
Great example of juxtapositionWe found a grew little textile shop that does custom orders and has wonderful light weight material
All hand done
Look at the little bolo shirt (is that what you call them?) Who wants one??
Precious and semiprecious jewels. I wish I knew more about how to buy them.
White pearls, black pearls purple pearls- all kinds. Below- I like this design. I think I need one. :)




What I like about writing is you don't really have to have anything specific to report. What goes on inside your mind is endlessly fascinating. I know that sounds conceited, but it is true. One's thoughts and reflections on those thoughts are often profound. As I have said about our students for years, it is true about ourselves as well: we are smarter than we let ourselves be. Keep writing Trish. and Thanks.
ReplyDeleteSometimes it is scary what goes on in my head. Yes, i totally agree with you. And as always.. thanks for the confidence building comments
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